Saturday, October 13, 2012

I Have Had My Fill of Emptiness

  Hey, yep it's me again..  I apologize for the semi long absence from my last blog post, but I feel that for me to be sincere my writing must be done when it is laid upon me to write..

    I will start my post today with somewhat of a confession "personal" in nature.. Before I began the very first post of my blogs I was definitely "struggling" w/memories, feeling of uselessness, and a very sad demeanor longing for relational happiness, and a sense of fulfillment or purpose.. Before a surfing trip I sat down to dinner with my very close surfer bro/mentor/coworker...  

       I began to explain the nights of "wailing" and "crying" out to my Father(God) with loneliness as "my" dreams, "my" hopes, were lost as I turned to those vivid memories re"living" them in pitiful repetition.. I explained to my friend I was crying out to God to fill me for I felt so empty at night alone in my apartment...

       This is when he asked me ....  What are you or Who are you investing yourself in? He proceeded to discuss with me about the similarities of my life as a Jar...  He explained a story of a Jar that   was full and started pouring its contents into others glasses and upon being emptied out came back to the well to be filled... Then there was the jar that was filled at one time becoming stagnant because the water wasn't being distributed anywhere... 

      Yep, you guessed it .... I was just hit upside the head like the taste of bleu cheese mixed with horseradish :/  I was holding very stagnant water and not appropriately using the vessel as God had intended me to be used...

      All this time before I had been selfishly crying out looking for personal happiness in self fulfillment instead of GIVING myself in a process of God through me.. I was soon to find out a joy like no other in my past.. 

       For I was not made to receive for myself but the joy is found when I become a vehicle or vessel for God's love and blessings to be poured out onto others.  :)

        So my blog post today is to encourage you to empty yourself of everything for another or others in your lives and yes even if they are an "enemy" 

       Luke 14:12-14
  He also said to the one who invited Him, "When you give a lunch or a dinner, don't invite your friends, your brothers, your relatives, or your rich neighbors, because they might invite you back, and you will be repaid. On the contrary, when you host a banquet, invite those who are poor, maimed, lame, or blind. And you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you; for you will be repaid at the resurrection of the righteous.

    Luke 6:32-36
  If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. If you do what is good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do what is good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High. For He is gracious to the ungrateful and evil. Be merciful, just as your Father also is merciful.

  This brings me to share with you a few videos of some of my favorite charitable organizations that interest me...  

    With many more ways to give in your own local areas where God leads you... Through a smile, warm jacket for the person you pass by in the winter, or local charity organizations...  Just listen to the direction God is placing in your life....  I have found so much truth in the true Joy of giving and I know you will find the same as God makes it real in your life as well...

   Much love....    Timothy

   I leave you with a video that has meant a lot to me as well


  1. Mr, Timothy, this was such an encouraging post..It has inspired me even more to one day do mission work. And yes, you are so right..sometimes we may be so consumed in ourselves that we don't see that God is trying to tell us to help others ( even in the smallest ways) you said, even our enemies..I like to think that forgiving them for all they've done means so much more to God than to continue to hold bitterness towards them. And giving ourselves to others who have less is such a special thing and will leave a lasting mark on their lives.. Thank you for such a heart touching post..Always looking forward to what God lays on your heart to share.


  2. Yes every time I watch these I find there is so very much I can do to offer myself for others, in the smallest of ways like sending shoe boxes, to giving a man collecting cans a gift of non judgmental funds as It is not always up to me to know the reasons behind the need but just to give as God has been more than gracious to me when I was undeserved... ty for your comment.. If God has touched anyone through these blog posts it gives me great joy so ty for letting me know and faithfully taking interest..